Was scrolling down and this insta post made me write this!
I myself learnt it very late that marriage is a public issue rather than one’s own very private matter. So when we say a no to marriage at any point of time, no family, no friends and no society understand that its each one’s personal choice what to do, when to do and with whom to do😜
But unfortunately whenever you say a no there are millions of allegations made against you and that comes from almost each and every person that includes your own family, your own close friends, all your own and not your own people.
The conclusions people make when someone says I’m not prepared for marriage now is either that the person is mentally or physically unfit, somebody might have cheated them, or they might have got some STD etc etc.
I wish if people understood that a person can have so many other priorities, wishes and choices in their life other than getting hooked with some idiot who comes to have some tea and see the amount of gold being offered. Unfortunately this thought just doesn’t enter anybody’s head.
Unmarried girls/women are mostly treated so bad, they are mostly made odd one out from almost all places and discussions, picturised as mentally or physically unfit, approached with wrong intentions, their parents are being tortured cause unfortunately their child got some aims and dreams. Similarly so many many other shits is being done in the so called literate elite society. I name these people stupid and nothing else. And some people might have gone through this hell so much and now they are like I don’t care a damn.
I would like to add…
Unmarried girls/women are not banned here..we do deserve to live here with all peace and dignity. 🙏
P.S. Among the so many other tortures I have faced in my life marriage torture ‘was’ the worst. Not anymore and I wrote this from my personal experience..no hard feelings😃
ചില ആളുകൾ നമ്മുടെ ജീവിതത്തിലേക്ക് വരുന്നത് നമ്മുടെ ഉള്ളിൽ എത്ര മാത്രം സ്നേഹം ഉണ്ടെന്നു നമുക്ക് തന്നെ ബോധ്യമാക്കി തരാനായിരിക്കും. അതേ സമയം ചിലർ വരുന്നത് എത്ര മോശം അവസ്ഥയിലേക്ക് നമുക്ക് നമ്മളെ കൊണ്ട് പോകാൻ സാധിക്കും എന്ന് തെളിയിച്ചു തരാനാകും . ഇതു രണ്ടും തമ്മിൽ ഉള്ള വ്യത്യാസം നമുക്ക് അറിയാമായിരിക്കുമെങ്കിലും ചിലപ്പോൾ ആ വ്യത്യാസം തിരിച്ചറിയാൻ പറ്റാതെ പോകാറുണ്ട്. തെറ്റുകളിൽ നിന്ന് തെറ്റുകളിലേക്കുള്ള നമ്മുടെ യാത്ര തുടങ്ങുന്നത് ചിലപ്പോളൊക്കെ അവിടെവെച്ചാകും.
നമ്മുടെ ജീവിതത്തിലേക്കു വരുന്ന ഓരോ വ്യക്തിയും ഓരോ അനുഭവമാണ്.. ഓരോ വ്യത്യസ്തമായ അനുഭവം.. വ്യത്യസ്തമായ ഓർമ്മകൾ.. വ്യത്യസ്തമായ പാഠങ്ങൾ… ഇതിൽ ഒന്നിൽ മറ്റൊന്ന് തിരയുന്നത്, വേണമെന്ന് വാശി പിടിക്കുന്നത് വിഡ്ഢിത്തം.
വൈകല്യമുള്ള മനുഷ്യർക്കിടയിൽ പൊരുത്തപ്പെടാൻ ശ്രമിച്ചു അവസാനം നമ്മൾ എത്തിപ്പെടുന്ന അവസ്ഥയാണെന്നു തോന്നുന്നു “ഭ്രാന്ത്” 😒
You rarely meet a guy with looks, brain and heart..And that was you my stranger!!!
Who would not fall for you, Yep, I did!! I wish you read this someday.. It’s all my heart that bleeds as words for you.. I know you hate me now, And I hate you for you hating me.. Does that make sense.. No, it doesn’t.. Yet I write lines for you.. I always did that for you, and you know it.. When you were with me, my words were full of you...
You and me, and our little story never made sense.. You just loved.. And I just looked at you But Now I don’t see you, You just vanished.. Some where not to be seen and never to be heard, As if you never existed.. As if you were all a dream in vain.. A beautiful dream I wish that never ended.. I don’t miss you stranger.. Yet I write lines for you!!
With love Anu🥀 ” The stranger friend” notes
A letter for you…
Dear My man, So tomorrow I’m taking my first trip with Appoopanthadi..my dream travel group about which I have told you enormous number of times.. I have told you all my travel dreams.. infact we both made it together..
You knew all my dreams.. one among them was to get placed into my highly aimed school.. another among them was to travel with Appoopanthadi and then i always used to tell you how badly I want my sis to get married to her love and my father say yes to them.. And finally They are getting wed this month..
I have told you each single dream and wishes of mine..and I don’t know anybody wanted me to fulfill all of them as badly as you wanted it for me … you knew my dreams better than anybody else.. nobody motivated me the way you did it.. I dreamt it all with you by my side… Today, as God fulfill each one of them and each one of them gets accomplished I can’t believe it.. But the most unbelievable part is you are not by my side.. Really.. but I do respect your decision as you left me with no other choice man!
I don’t know if I’m happy I’m supposed to be happy…I don’t know if I’m sad also.. i just write this may be one day if you ever read it.. Wherever you are I hope you are fine.. With love Anu P.S. There is a reason why I post this in WP🙃
Once you have stayed in a wrong relationship too long or you have grown up your entire life watching wrong relationship, you lived in it as if drinking poison each day of your life..then never again will you ever get back to the real you, the very naive you will be totally lost forever.. how much you try you are always and always in the hold of fear..persistent fear that keeps coming out as aggression, rudeness, extremely harsh, doubtful, unhappy. You meet the right one, you know very well this is right for you..yet you let people leave you..they leave with hurt and pain from you..yet you just look at them helpless. You know it very well why they left..yet you pretend as if not..You can’t make a single step forward for the sake of you or the other..You can’t get hold of your underlying fear and its different sort of manifestations. You can’t make any change in you that takes you back to your old self.. that mend stuffs..that mend people with you..that let them stay with you..that mends you and your damaged soul..but no, For you the big change has already happened from your real self to that guarded pretended self now. You let people go.. You let them go hurt… You let people leave you.. You isolate yourself.. You push yourself into that dark corner of your ripped heart.. And you are never ever ready to move from it.
As I always say..”We the damaged people are never born damaged, but don’t know why we choose to stay so…”
I don’t know if I have said this before.. It was nights that used to scare me before..but now Waking up scares me more… Every day morning I feel I never woke up. People say time heals, But I find myself sinking more and more as each day passes.. I’m not sinking fast also.. It’s like slowly slowly each inch of mine drowning drowning suffocated… Body aches so much, I feel I’m not able to move. Mind aches so much that I’m not able to get any proper thoughts, Heart aches and I don’t find any sort of light inside..its not simply dark… its fusion of so many darks…messy darks like.. Some times I wish I could scream out… I have seen in films people go to that roof top or a hilly top and scream out loud… I can’t do that… So I sit n write.. Its not happy things I write.. But I’m in despair.. presently my mood goes like this.. I dont want to call it that word ‘depression’… I just wanna call it some troubled days..which I hope will pass on soon.. Thank you reading my insane thoughts.